when you realize, those who were your best friends years ago,
have left your life.
They come to you when they want you,or have no one better to be with.
Or they delete you from their life as quickly as you entered it.
you were my sister. my best friend that i told everything to. you left me for everyone who lives life under the influence. you left me because i’m not good enough.
you were my older sister. i came to you with things my own sister could not understand. you decided i was out of the picture. that i should become no one to you. that our “friendship” was just a way to pass the time.
goodbye. have fun living your life without me. i’m better off on my own. with my true best friend. he’ll never leave me.
Today has been horrible. And just I am gonna explode. There is so much inside my mind and I can’t contain it. I am bending and breaking and I don’t understand why i think these thoughts. These thoughts are haunting me and taunting me. But I am scared to tell anyone about them. Because what if all the things I think are true? What if people agree with all this negativity? I am so scared to vent about it. I don’t know why, I just am. Because then it makes my thoughts real. Actually, maybe it will make them less real…