I have so much anger and hurt inside right now. I hate this. I hate people. I hate lies. I hate feeling like nothing. I need this to stop. I am sick of being treated like shit and I am just sick and tired. I want to punch something. When I am mad, it’s horrible. I feel so self destructive.
Today I was looking at old family pictures, and my heart warmed so much. When you think about it, you realize true beautiful love is a bit rare these days. So many people get divorced and forget about what made them love eachother. One thing I realized is when you find someone who you can never leave, you know you are in true love. My grandparents have been married 54 years, and I realized, they still are just as much in love as they were at day one. I found two love letters my grandfather wrote my grandmother in 1959 while he was at an air base in PA. I cried after I read them. You see two people who have grown old and grey together, and they have just stuck like glue. They come home to eachother everyday not because it is an obligation, but because they really love eachother. My grandparents hold hands and it really warms my heart. I think about them, and my parents who have been married for 27 years. I know they still love eachother after all these years. Just by the way they look at eachother. I used to think love was not real, but it is. I am experiencing it right now, and it is beautiful. It is not just a word, but an actually strong emotion. An emotion that grips your heart and is so hard to let go. I love you Matt, and when I say that, I really mean it.
“The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. True beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It’s the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows & the beauty of a woman only grows with passing years.”
— Audrey Hepburn”—(via demiilauren)